Worrying over mindless talks

Usually, when there are people talking behind my back, saying bad things about me, I don't give a damn.
There was even once that my brother told his friends about my bad habits in front of me... a bit embarrassing but I didn't feel the need to correct him. I don't give a shit because mostly what they are saying have some kind of truth in it, for the people closer to me. If not, the people not close to me would have been talking in their own judgement/misunderstanding/insensitivity or something close. And I don't really care to clear to up the misunderstandings, they are people who are not part of my life after all. Who cares what you think? Definitely not me..

Thank god for my heck care attitude that I have lived so happily all these time. True that we should be more aware of our surroundings, I'm also not sure why I am this way, but I really like this part of me, especially when I see my friends and colleagues being troubled by the talks of people who mean so little to their lives.

My friend used to ask me why am I so indifferent? Why don't I care about these things? Why am I being so clueless? They can't seems to understand how can I treat the talks like nothing. Probably because they are really nothing? Well... I can't understand why they care so much of these things. I mean I would understand if the one talking about you is your dad or brother or someone you share life with or your boss, but the others... I don't get it.

Though after starting work, I just very recently found out that I would only start to mind when the people close to me are minding the talks on my behalf. (A tiny little bit) Though I thank them for caring, but caring about who and what is said behind your back is too much of a trouble for me. Troublesome, Really! So in other words, I'm really lazy to care. I guess that is part of my "living in my own world" personality. I could use the time to go Pinterest or read manga instead.

Is this what God wants for me? The hell I know! But I'm sure if it isn't, He'll do something about it. So, I think I'm ok.

But I'll really love to care if there are people talking good behind my back, those are affirmations.. Haha..
God bless =]