Being Upset.

Sometimes I frown, but I'll not realized it until someone points it out to me, telling me to relax.
It's not something that I can control, frowning.
Besides, I don't see my own face all the time, so I don't catch myself with my expressions.


I messed up at work today. Or the past few days, and today I am experiencing the effects of it.
As I probably had mentioned before, I am a logistics planner.
My job is to make sure to have everything ready for the company's production.
Ordering raw materials, production scheduling, stock take and ensuring everything is in place for packaging.
Make sure we have OPP Film, small packaging boxes, triple-wall boxes, pallets and other packaging  for all the different products.
(and different products have different requirement for their packaging)
And I missed out one of them.
For an urgent product on top of that.

I have been here for half a year.
I shouldn't be making these kind of beginner's mistakes.
It felt so terrible.

I'm upset at my incompetence.
It seems that my colleagues who are mostly older than me by decades became worried about me, knowing that I'm upset.
They told me to relax, don't worry, don't stress myself.
But how can I not?
And they should be upset at me too.
(Like my boss who is ignoring me right now)

No matter what, Thank God for them.
And Thank God for his backing and deliverance.
God brought us through.
Thank God for the suppliers as they have stock or else we would have to be stuck for one week. (Urgent product)


I should thank them properly, my colleagues.
Thank them for not putting more pressure on me, looking out for me and worrying for me.
I should apologize to them properly too.
For causing them trouble, making them worried, and my incompetence.
But God, you know that your servant is not good with words.
And you know that your servant is not good with expressing.
I want to write a card to them, but I don't have paper.
Besides, I think it will be more sincere to thanks them face to face.

What do I do?